Rant Here...Rant There

Hello World,

Yes today is a rant post. Currently I am working on a research paper for my sociology class that I normally wouldn't have a problem with, except for the fact that we're on spring break. I mean come on it's called a break for a reason. Sometimes I wonder if these professors think it is fun to screw with us...oh wait they do.

On a fun note, I have discovered my family is a bunch of plan ahead people. I thought it was just my mom and I, but when I got home Friday, all my little brothers were talking about was what they were buying with their Christmas money. Seeing as how we don't do presents for Christmas, but we do money instead and go shopping the day after Christmas, it's almost understandable. Nut here's the thing....it's March. They crack me up...ever since my aunt got a hot tub, that is all my 17 year old brother wants and he wants the other 2 to go in on it. But today, mom and I got to talking, and we thought instead of going shopping for Christmas, we should try to go on a cruise. There is only one problem with that, we are both poor college kids. I have a small part time job and I am lucky if I make more than $250 a month and she is lucky to even find a shift since she is a PRN right now. Of course we are both doing lots of research and it is possible if we both save about $200 a month from now on but this will probably end up being a next year thing. But nevertheless, I am excited about this :)

Anyway, things have been going so-so. I am halfway through my second semester of college and I of course hate my grades, but the ones I am doing worst in have the least points put up. Both of them have about 5 things each on the grading scale. I do not wanna go see my advisor because of this. He is kind of a jerk and this is going to make him flip shiz. What can you do though. I need to just keep working, keep my head held high, and keep looking forward.

Oh I forgot to mention, I saw my kids Tuesday. No, I do not have actual children, I mean my elementary kids. Story is, I went to my old school Tuesday and stayed pretty much all day. Crazy, I know, guess I love that place too much. Anyway, I pretty much observed all of the music classes and helped my old choir. Sad news is, they have completely given up. No one wants to participate, they don't believe in themselves, and they don't get along. Don't get me wrong, everythng wasn't perfect last year, but it wasn't this bad. It made me sad, but of course I still love them and am doing whatever I can to go to their concert. Even though I know it will probably be a disaster. Alright back to my kids. I found out that the elementary kids were 2nd and 5th graders that day and the now second graders were the kids I became very attached to last year as the aide and I was so excited to see them. I heard them walking in and they knew that I was there when the teacher said we had a guest. Seeing some of the reactions made me so happy cause most of them remembered me and it was just great. I seriously wanted to find a time machine so I could be the teacher. At this point, I don't even know how long it will take me to finish school. Hopefully not too long cause I don't have the patience. Anyway, just being there tat day, made me very excited about what I am doing with my life and it made me sure about things again.

I am so not ready to go back Sunday, nor a I ready for these auditions. I know my music, but I am just afraid of screwing up and having a very negative lessons teacher can really bring you down. I just have to go in with all the confidence in the world, show them what I have, and kick butt.

Well it is 4 am now and I really need to sleep. Plus I am freezing right now.

Good Night world!

Currently listening to: Who are the Brave-United Air Force Singing Sergeants.